I HATE CRYING

Coz crying means weak. It just likes losing control.. I wonder, who has the remote control of myself?

So I keep reading anybook,, I keep listening music out loud,, I keep saying Allah's names,,,

And I push myself to smile ,, to laugh,,, to move,,, so I can avoid crying,,,,

I'm twenty something and I still can't change it. Have I failed with my resolution?

I thought I've changed,, but the fact is I keep pretending to be strong.

So I keep watching comedy show,,, I keep reading comic,, I keep writing on my blog,,