Have you ever done the same mistakes for the second time? I have, and it feels wrong. Maybe the pain is not much more than this if it doesn't affect to another people.
I don't know what to say. Some said, you have to get up. Gagal, lalu bangkit lagi. Berkali-kali gagal, lalu bangkit kembali. But this is different.
I've wasted time, energy, their money. But in the end, I ruined it. I want to get the solution but I'm too confused. Speechless. I'm sorry. And that question come back again in my mind.. Do I capable? Is this suitable for me?